Lessons from Escorting

Hello well many of my long term friends I have met throughout my time as an escort would know I'm a very unique individual.

I spend much of my life in observation, contemplation & deep insight.

The more in tune with myself I became the more I have enjoyed these deep insightful times. My job to me has always been about something far more than what the physical see. But I guess it's because the world looks at things one sided they could never truly understand the different facets things could be. I had a conversation with a friend a few years ago about a game where you could be anything you ever wanted to be & it lead to a conversation of what was your most outlandish dream as a child.

I think most people had some strange sort of secret dreams but for myself it was a spy lol maybe I enjoyed tomb raider games too much. But I have always been very good at reading people and situations. Those things have always intrigued me & although I am not that job although many like to joke that I am lol- I have always liked to embody those qualities & use them in a way to understand people.

I'm a very private person & I have always liked it that way but over my years as an escort I have learnt about people, relationships & the world in ways that I could have only dreamt. Possibly due to the time I have been gifted having a job where I have hours for contemplation, reading philosophy / physics/ , meditation and inner work.

For years I felt the need to share parts of this job, share some of my stories and experiences - not in a way that is commonly done in this industry because the longer I have been in it- the more private I have become. But in a philosophical context - a boarder understanding of many different topics - love, self acceptance, relationships, self healing & maybe if I dare beliefs.

There is something people do not take into account in this industry is some people are very energetically aware- that although not all bookings but a vast majority of bookings are about something more than physical even if the person booking doesn't know so themselves.

I have created this series of blogs as I'm someone who has a different belief of friendships, connection and energy. I'm a very introverted person but that does not mean that I am shy or not care for others. When I connect with people it's on a deeper level than that of usual society norms -even if sometimes I try to enforce those on myself. For example, most people probably don't pay any attention to the cashiers at their store, the trolley boy who takes your trolley, the Uber driver, the nail technician. I do- I have an incredible level of care for every human that I share a bit of interaction with. I wonder about them & always have a bit of hope for them. I notice when someone who has scanned my groceries for months is suddenly gone & although I might think I miss that interaction - like a butterfly I hope they have grown wings and gone to better opportunities that fulfill them or a new store where they find more joy. I have that same level of hope, love and understanding for all humans in my life - including friends and clients.

There are friendships that might suddenly end & although sometimes I might wonder why, I never have an ill wish. Quiet the opposite and although I will never be cold & there are those I will always be there if they need - I hold hope and well wishes from afar. Because clinging to someone who have grown wings would be rather selfish & would not be love for that person. That would be possession, keeping someone stuck in something they are meant to transform from. I also believe my energy is sacred just as everyone else's & a gift that at times felt like a curse in my life is I am not always meant to stay in people's lives - I will share a blog about this at a later stage in lessons.

Life is a journey of lessons & escorting has been one of the greatest of mine. It took me through paths & pieces of myself that I had hidden away from all including myself. It made me heal from things I never knew I needed to heal from and truly deepened my understanding of all that is. Including myself and energy. Especially my understanding of beliefs & expectations - recognizing what was mine and what was once implemented into me & whether it truly serves me & others in a beneficial way.

I understand that lessons in life come to an end and sometimes that's what a relationship is, what a connection is, a job. That in my life I have been many people's awakening of their lessons (or I was meant to be and unfortunately some people were not ready to face a part of themselves). I have learned all my life not to cling to people or things past their time & that when things naturally fall away that maybe they are meant to- that the lesson has been learned. The same as when you know a puzzle piece is meant to be in its place but it just doesn't seem too fit- maybe it was wet and needs time to regain its proper size and form- to recognized it's true integrity, the right place, the right piece but the wrong time- more lessons to learn more things to shed before it becomes it's true self. Life can contort us, add beliefs, experiences, habits, pain that might change our true form & until we unravel those things and understand ourselves we will never truly fit into our desired and destined place.

Some people may not be in a place to spend time with me anymore, or they may have as I hope figured out how to heal & become butterflies & some unfortunately have not yet freed themselves from something that was limiting them from what they truly want. All things serve their purpose & all journeys are valid and uniquely yours- you are a part of someone's dream, a creation of another's greater (who ever you wish to call them) that has led you on a script in life - you can choose upcoming scenes for the future but they require the conscious choice and understanding of such aswell as implementation & understanding that your journey is a small part of a larger movie that encompasses all films simultaneously.

The world is so much more complex than most people will ever have the opportunity to experience for themselves because they have become consumed in the material too Far. Material is important, comfort is necessary and important - self development & achievement is important but most people do not delve into the non physical side of those things and miss the true beauty in the little things. Which that understanding would only further enhance and deepen the appreciation of all material aswell.

I am writing this series as years ago I thought I was ready to do such but now I know it is time. I'm not making it viral or taking it to some video platform or book like I once thought I would. This is not about money for me. Because one day my lesson will come to an end & when it does I want to take my final form & not need attachment to what I once was anymore & instead only have the lessons I have learned & the person I have become.

But in these near 10 years I believe I have learned much that would be a shame to let be washed away. And that might be of use to some of those I have connected with over the years & as a way of thanks for the lessons they have helped me uncover in my journey maybe I can awaken a lesson in them & it leads them to a place of more peace & happiness in life whichever that means for that individual.

We are all unique and one of the greatest lessons in life is to not judge another's paths & to not get caught in a lie telling you that you should. Ego can be healthy when it is recognized but unhealthy when it's implemented to enforce a sense of control- people have felt safe to remove their masks with me 🎭 & for that I am forever grateful as it enabled me to eventually realize my own and remove it in a space it was needed and I had not realized I had put one on long ago. So rest assured I am not sharing the intimate details of anything or anyone specific (sorry if that's your jam) but rather context that maybe you will recognize parts of yourself in.

Context that might show there is lessons in everything & when something goes unexpected to how you plan- you can claim the advantage that you had something to learn before hand.

Thanks for being here & I hope you are well

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Xxx

Armarni Bulkani